- Name:
Tomoko
Nakai
- Year: 1996
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Ever since I was eight years old, I've been
involved with English. And this is my eleventh year. During these eleven years,
however, the total amount of time I studied English is small. I think the third
year in high school was the year I studied most. Until I was in the 11th grade I
didn't feel any necessity to study English because I had
always been in advanced classes and getting fairly good grades without
studying. But in the middle of grade 11, I met a woman, and it
changed my life.
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She had been one of my mother's best friends
and had been teaching English for quite a long time. One day I got a phone call
from my mother and I was told to go and see Mrs. Mukai, the English teacher. I
couldn't make out what was going on, but I went. On arriving there, she handed
me some English grammar exercise books and told me to do a few pages from each
regularly. And then at the end she told me to come and bring those books next
week at the same time. It was not until then that I realized that it was my
mother's plan to make me study English under the direction of Mrs. Mukai. At
first I didn't feel like studying and, as usual, I thought I didn't need to. But
after I went there a couple of times, she started pointing out my defects and
warned me that my English was nothing to be proud of. I was really shocked and
disappointed to hear that, but also very ashamed of being so over confident.
From then on, I began to study English hard lest I should let Mrs. Mukai and my
mother down. And I wanted them to praise me, for they seldom did.
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I kept on studying, but it took time for me
to get results. I sometimes got sick and tired of doing English grammar and I
wanted to escape from it. But about six months later I started getting the
highest marks in tests. I was delighted and was gradually engrossed in studying
English. My hardest time, I will never forget, was during summer of the last
year in high school. I studied over 12 hours a day. That time I had to mail my
work to Mrs. Mukai every other day, so I didn't have any day off. It was like
hell. But every time I look back on those days, I don't know how to express my
gratitude to her. She made me what I am today. And this is how I've studied
English during JHS and HS period.
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This year I was so lucky to have this class.
I learned many new useful strategies in class. I found it very interesting to
experiment on myself. Though my own basic ways of studying haven't changed
greatly, I've acquired some new things to add to it. And I also learned a lesson
that once you find a way that suits you it can be used in any area and that it's
up to you how to use it. Right now I'm taking French for my second foreign
language. I believe I can learn French effectively by following the same
strategies as I did in English learning.
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After finishing my first year in university,
what I really want to improve is something deep in my mind. Whenever I speak to
someone in English I have a fear that I might disappoint that person. Because
I'm a returnee, most people think that I can speak English fluently, just like
the natives. In short, I seem to have an inferiority complex about my English
speaking ability. I know it's ridiculous but I can't get rid of it. I have this
big contradiction inside me. So removing this, I believe, would be
one of my goals for the next three years in university. I'm being
pessimistic now, but since I'm in such a situation I think I will be able to
find out a really good way to get over this problem. It's not help from others
that I want, but energy and beliefs which would prevent me from being
overwhelmed by myself.
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I don't know what I want to be after I
graduate, but I would like to find it while I'm in university. I want to absorb
many things by means of English and choose whatever is best for me. I'll try to
take advantage of my time and opportunities.